Paul McCartney recently spoke about how he felt the day he found out his The Beatles bandmate John Lennon had been killed. “I was at home. I got a phone call. It was early in the morning. I was in the country… It was so horrific,” McCartney said while on The Jonathan Ross Show. “You couldn’t take it in. I couldn’t take it in. For days, you just couldn’t think that he was gone. It was such a huge shock… It was very difficult. It was very difficult for everyone. That was a really big shock in most peoples’ lives, a bit like [John F.] Kennedy and certain moments like that… For me, it was just so sad.” Lennon died 34 years ago today, on December 8, 1980.

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