Just last week, Kid Cudi released two new singles, "Surfin'" with Pharrell and "Frequency." He seemed to be in a positive state of mind and excited about things to come, but today he reveals a darker side. Through a message to fans on Facebook, Cudi shares that he's checked himself into rehab for depression and suicidal urges. He says that he feels like he's been living a lie and that he's never been at peace.
"If I didn't come here, I would've done something to myself," Cudi explains in the post. "My anxiety and depression have ruled my life for as long as I can remember and I never leave the house because of it. I can't make new friends because of it. I don't trust anyone because of it and I'm tired of being held back in my life."
He promises fans that his upcoming album is still on the way, and that Republic and his manager will keep fans posted about his music. Kid Cudi vows to "focus on [his] recovery," hopefully to make it out in time for ComplexCon.
Our thoughts are with Kid Cudi. Read his Facebook post below.
"Its been difficult for me to find the words to what Im about to share with you because I feel ashamed. Ashamed to be a leader and hero to so many while admitting I've been living a lie. It took me a while to get to this place of commitment, but it is something I have to do for myself, my family, my best friend/daughter and all of you, my fans.
"Yesterday I checked myself into rehab for depression and suicidal urges.
"I am not at peace. I haven't been since you've known me. If I didn't come here, I wouldve done something to myself. I simply am a damaged human swimming in a pool of emotions everyday of my life. Theres a ragin violent storm inside of my heart at all times. Idk what peace feels like. Idk how to relax. My anxiety and depression have ruled my life for as long as I can remember and I never leave the house because of it. I cant make new friends because of it. I dont trust anyone because of it and Im tired of being held back in my life. I deserve to have peace. I deserve to be happy and smiling. Why not me? I guess I give so much of myself to others I forgot that I need to show myself some love too. I think I never really knew how. Im scared, im sad, I feel like I let a lot of people down and again, Im sorry. Its time I fix me. Im nervous but ima get through this.
"I wont be around to promote much, but the good folks at Republic and my manager Dennis will inform you about upcoming releases. The music videos, album release date etc. The album is still on the way. Promise. I wanted to square away all the business before I got here so I could focus on my recovery.
"If all goes well ill be out in time for Complexcon and ill be lookin forward to seeing you all there for high fives and hugs.
"Love and light to everyone who has love for me and I am sorry if I let anyone down. I really am sorry. Ill be back, stronger, better. Reborn. I feel like shit, I feel so ashamed. Im sorry."
I love you,