In a rare interview, Future spoke with the Huffington Post ahead of the release of his new album Dirty Sprite 2. Things got pretty deep, from how he had to leave to go on tour just after his son was born (“It was super tough”) to how his music “is a diary” that he’s giving to the public.

He talks about Ciara — not just about the couple’s break-up, but how he thought her most recent album should have, like “Body Party,” been produced by Mike WiLL Made-It. Spoiler alert: Monster is his desert island disc (of his own recordings) — “I had to become a monster to get where I’m at.”

Watch the full interview above.